far from perfect, this is the life you take. with the whispers and constant stares your routine stays the same. there's nothing in the world you wouldn't give to change what you are now, but where you are now is from what you have become. and what you have become is what you have learned throughout the years, so i'm asking you. what have you learned when i wasn't around?

I haven't blogged in almost a month, so why this night. Why October 1st? I don't even know, symbolizism? First month, of a new month, 30 days until Halloween.. oh wait I'm too old for that now. xD A brief summary of what's been happening in my life. Well, for starters I've learned that this year is the toughest, at first I wanted to drop a course because the teacher is well.. let's say not so in the teacher esque type. And today I realized that I just need to suck it up, and just try better, actually tomorrow I think I'm asking her for help. Erm, so many things I've committed to this year, I really do think that it's going to be fun even though the bags under my eyes are slowly darkening, the girl that used to be funny, and energetic, is slowly dying inside for some reason. Pft, and the funny thing is... there's this new person in my life? hahha no, but yeah I've caught a glimpse of someone new. Who cares honestly, he's not my type. I guess I just admire him, of his talents. I won't go into detail about that.

Ahh, how I miss the sweet sounds of summer, the endless nights, and the raviging fights of nonsense of who took the last what. Running in nonsense, hanging out with the coolest friends on earth. -coughs britt coughs :[ And the thing that's been bugging me the most? That I doubt myself a whole lot, and when i think I can do something I can't own up to it. I'm a faliure at life. The End.

Oh, and the sad thing is... I already know what I want for christmas.

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It's been so long since I've been on here; it feels different but then again it feels like sanity here. I can write down anything I need to get out of my system and no one will know. So here it goes. I've had a couple xanga's before but since this is the beginning of a new school year, new me, whatever, I think it's time for me to start off fresh. No names are needed, you don't really need to know who I am. I'm just an average girl with feelings and emotions just like everyone else. I can rant on and on but right now I need to get some reading done. xD